now at xmas eve

It has been a very long time, and i was absent with my hobby to write something. It's xmans eve now, and the time of xmas canddle service is here. With anything that remind me of the young girl's wish, i recall that, i miss those moment. I have been ngejomblo for more than ten years. I have been with a guy for several years, and i have been in love with him and save my heart only for him, along my romantic feelings, but it seems that he just ignore or prepare for something, that is what i believe. But this nite, along the xmas eve celebration, i adore ..... another guy, he presents along the time of my lonelyness,but i keep my heart for another guy, ahahahahah, i just keep my heart and eyes being blind of keeping my both eyes upon the previous guy. I even try to break my dreams, that my wild dream ever come to me. A wild girl like me would dream the wild romatic dream like pushed in corner while my blood goes thundering. *smiley face* :P (nu-uh, this was the guy i mean, my tab). perhaps you guys just can imagine that,but aaahhh shooo, knock it off, it was just a simple drema along the waiting that curl up my feeling. And yesterday about and the other days behind, that wake me up that, guys mostly cute ones are everywhere, but what strenghten me is MARIAH CAREY, all i want for xmas is, ahahahahahahahahah, merry christmas, i adore you everyone, merry xmas eve honeyyy right there i believe *smooch smooch* kisses _________________ btw this was my tab, i got electronical shocked for a moment, and i wrote this on the corner..... ahahahahahaha i know, it was just a joke, thus it wasn't funny..... do you know how it feel to be lonely??? admit that.... you'll go crazy by yourself