Taking Nerve???

Today I made another speech to rebuild my confidence in making speaking. The mossy is "Should Negative Politics Advertisement be banned?". I reclaimed myself on that speech, that yes, there is always some positive sides on everything. I think and utter my opinion on that speech, that somehow ignoring about the negative sides is always better. I proclaimed, that we have to admit that even a negative point of view is not always giving us advantage. But to realm the situation of what happen today, I was angry to myself. As there is always a negative sides that come up in making balance of live, I got fed up with being the one who is always being the receivers. At first, I thought it will be always okay to become the receiver. And always praise for everything I had earned. But that is not always right. Up on in one point of view, if I stand in one place and always grain the seeds of being receiver and praise for everything, one day like today, I FED UP!!. This is not the balance that I want. Live should be balance. One day when I make and spread the seeds of being thankful and always receive for anything, and someday I need to reclaim that I also need one moment where I could make myself happy just because I made mistake. It might not a big mistake. But quite okay to make myself satisfied. What I mean here, if for one person I met everyday and FED me up, why not in another day I make her have the same thought? The situation is absolutely not about "The Upper Level" anymore. But about the same worker in one place hand in hand working happily without some other as the main leader. I knew that this might not giving solution. But the point I want to tell is, Give me Balance of Live. I got happy, and so is you. And what I am afraid of is, as where my speech about Negative Politics. I didn't do that speech pretty well. Because there is always minus and plus in everything. I just want to yell out. Please, do not give me any more Negative side to THINK about. In short. Let me have my thought vacancy for a while. I need indeed a balance. Yea, to bring my thought a little bit lighter. Stop thinking HERTA. If I said STOP, THEN STOP!!! PERIOD.