felt quilty

This is for the umpteenth time I have to reduce my anger and not to blame my Student. I admit that I get used to face teenagers. And whilst in this EARLY CHILDHOOD, I am absolutely NEW. I had face teens and teach them since in the beginning of my graduation. But early bird is very different. It is the same field. But I have to give more of my heart when I am working. I am absolutely not becoming a carrier woman. But I am serving little toys and very deep of heart. Well, ofcourse it is depend on the baby human themselves, but this day, I felt very quilty of not reducing my emotion. This coming weekend, I will say to myself, I have to change. I have to say to myself a lot more to be more and more patient. yup PATIENT. I have to buy this skill a storage of, lol. But anyway, learning is by doing, not by saying. Oh boy, I almost lost her heart. And that is very important. 1 heart of this little kid, is many for me.

ga to the lau (as usual)

galau itu sesuatu banget. tadinya sy punya masalah, sampe skarang siiiahwa sy it u pelupa banget. dan suatu ketika, sy dipercayakan untuk menyimpan rahasia.malahan, ujung - ujungnya, sy malahan membocorkan dengan membahas rahasia itu sendiri. kan bodohnya luar biasa. sehingga, karna pikunnya sy itu, sy kena CAP, sbagai pengkhianat. sy mah, nerima ngga nerima, yaa terjerumuslah sy disitu.belum lagi, dikategorikan PEMBOHONG. padahal ngga maksut loooh. yaa karna sy pelupa banget itu tadi.... barusan sesorean ini, sy lagi lagi jadi sperti pengkhianat. karna ngga memihak teman sepe rjuangan. dan "ngrasani" teman tersebut. padahal sy mau memihak siapa. masak memihak teman yg walaupun seperjuangan, tapi tidak benar dan sangat MATRE. hedeuh, sy naksir cowo yg pengusaha dan memiliki beberapa karyawan. dan dari perbincangan kami, sy ngerasa, bahwa usaha yg dia buat itu, sperti usaha yg maaf yaa hun, usaha yg misbar, tapi kan supaya ngga misbar, yaaa omzet disesuaikanlah dengan gaji karyawan.supaya usahanya ngga cuman disitu aja, tapi berkembang. kemudian sy membela mantan bos kami, yg pengusaha juga laaa. dan bahkan, kemudian masalah slesai aja.tapi jadi teringat.bahwa sy ketika mau berbagi curhatan, udah seumuran sy, slain banyak yg udah sy alami, yaaa banyak juga yg sudah terjadi, dan LUPA. haiiisss. pokoknya, buat yg baca baca sepotong-sepotong. tapi langsung ambil kesimpulan. hadoooohhh, pliiizzzz deh. gua b. rusaha adil yeeee. dan dari sekian banyak problem... pliiizzz deh, gua ngga maksut berkhianat. tapi yg jelas, jangan main ngecap orang seenak udel deh. ups, barusan gua juga bilang temen gua matre yaaa. GIVE UP GIVE UP GIVE UP.yg jelas gua moody kadang kadang. tukang marah kadang kadang. maapin yeeee, untuuuung lebaran staun skali. ni lagi abiis lebaran nii. MATEKKKKK....