catatan 27 juli

first day at school.... yasudahlah.. yg hidup sulit bukan cuman gue kok... kalo nonton Kick Andy yg sebelum TV i diboikot keberadaannya.... hahahaha sbenernya... rusak dan males bli yg baru... sbagai gantinya... nyokap lebih demen make inet... smacam streaming gitulah....dan... zzzzzzzz.... i blogging gini juga di mana ajaaa bboooyyyeeee.... zzzzzzzzz..... btw.... masih dgn keberadaan... bahwa ketika ngajar... tiba tiba ngeluyur ajalah ni pikiran.... tapi bagusnya... skarang ini bisa banget diredam.... tinggal switch and deep down saying.... Mit.. u wanna loose ur job? just concentrate... a few more minute... stelah kelas berlangsung.... hmmmm toh cuman ampe high noon ini... stelah itu kan tugas ini itu toohh??? dan... yauwislah... keep striving... keep going...keep ur head forwarding to the front.....keep doing good... do not cross the border... keep on believing.... krn... alamaaakkkk.... ngeread artikel di FB.... about some 8 people yg tewas gak jelas ketika mreka dgn gamblang mengatakan bahwa Tuhan ngga ada..... termasuk di dalamnya John Lennon dan Marilyn Monroe..... mmmmmm sbenernya.... hal hal smacam biji cabe yg nyelilit ketika makan yg sbenernya gak perlu pedes itu.... yaa anggep aja hal yg biasa aja.... teruslah FAIR for ur self... bahwa sbenernya ngga ada yg gratis.... ngasih pertolongan ke orang itu... slagi masih muda itu... bisa jadi rugi rugi gimanaaa gitu... krn belum tentu nyebar benih itu.. nanti jadinya buah....krn orang berbuat baik itu juga ngga gratisan.... sukur sukur orang yg kita baikin ngga berbuat kejahatan.... "jangan berpikir bahwa kamu ngga akan pernah dimakan singa.. hanya karna kamu ngga pernah makan daging singa" smentara kamu hidup di sirkus atau di hutan belantara atau di savana africa.... keep remember that.... tapiiii... hiks hiks hiks hiks.....masih banyak boooo yg hidupnya lebih sulit....bersyukur ajalah yaaa.... masih bisa ngerasain hal hal yg mungkin belom pernah dirasa orang lain....

Trip To Bandung 3-5 July 2015

yesterday we visit Saung Mang Udjo in one special place in Bandung Area...i started to fallen in love with the tradition that occur in this place....the dances...the harmony of the people... and every kind of anything that related to Sundanese...aaaaayyyyeeee may i just call them Sundanian hahahahah...... it remind me of one of my boyf...cannot tell a lot about him... but every single thing, since i enjoy the delightful of the rhytm (i dunno how to spell rhytm... not really well on spelling thou) and the glorious harmony of those people who managed well and arranged on the show... how i love them all... including the audiences....how can the show goes so really really well without any mistakes and waw amazing thou..... about 4-5 years ago... when i left java island to visit manado, north sulawesi... i cannot forget the beauty of the biggest aquarium ever...amazingly with the warmth of the feeling well in there... God.... It is kind of dilemma for me.... i know i cannot choose which one is best for me....but it occur a kind of feeling that may retain for a long time if the decision yet not be taken sooner.... my prayer since... i don't really remember when... but.... who am i going to spend my latest time will be??? just finish my problem with the decision that....... well can i take my own decision??? this is my live yet i k by myself of which am i going to spend my last live with siapa??? now i fallen tears in my heart... being gloomy and nervous.... let me just see the end of the novel u wrote for me.....because i want to know.... whose am i going to be with??? the poeple???? whose actually living thing?? or the scenery and the nature??? it is not about something....but for me also... God is living thing...of which i am not living to praise the non living thing ......... although sometimes it cannot abide ... right??? just be quick for the answer....i am deadly need it so super very fast...i am just an ordinary one.... just special in some case... not as the whole T__T ow gees..... until when????